The Longest Minutes of Life

Under the valley of mist,
In the blur of my imagination,
There I wonder!
Would words be enough?
Would tears suffice?
To show the ache inside
To tell the story behind.
To face my doubts of existence in life!
Will I ever be enough?
Will I ever survive the longest minutes of life?
Will it be over?
Or worse?
Or just a dreadful nightmare?
Will I ever long for my existence?
Or just the end of it?
Am I always gonna be the coward?
Coward for hope?
Coward for life?
Whatever I’m gonna be,
Just let me be.
For you, it might be minutes.
But for me, it’s so long-
It feels like years.

November 27, 2021 0

A Hope within Yawp!

The rod of wrath upon me,
Affliction and yawp within.
Surrounded by bitterness and brokenness.
Weighed down by my chains.
In the sea of calamity,
Filled with inquiry and confusion.
Holding my pierced heart,
Deprived of peace and comfort.

Yet this, I call to mind.
This, I recite to my soul.
For He is faithful,
I won’t be left in my downcast.
By His compassion,
He heals the bitterness of my soul.
In His goodness,
He will come for my unquiet darkness.
In His great love and mercy,
Therefore, I have hope!

November 13, 2021 0

You and I,
Once, our paths crossed,
The stars wrote our fate.
Bound us on the road.
Then we stumbled.
Crossed each other’s path.
And depart,
Away from each other.
Bereft of ourselves in each other.
Piece of me left with you.
Perhaps, we’ll bump into each other once again.
Maybe you will return part of me.
Or maybe this will be like it never happened.
Maybe I’ll always live missing a part of me.
The part of me I’ll never find again!

November 10, 2021 0

You and I,
We are like the two faces of a coin-
You’re the obverse,
And, I the reverse.
We may not be on the same page, ever.
But always together,
Always have something in common.
Parting us,
Would hurt.
Keeping us,
Should ache.
Till we melt,
Of the passion we have,
And be in the same page.

November 10, 2021 0

Islet of Reality

For someone who lives on edge,
On the edge of every little thing,
I was brave for a while.
For someone who repressed every emotion and thought,
I wasn’t in a hole for a bit.
For someone who is pessimist,
In every aspect of life,
I wasn’t that negative about it.
For someone who is afraid of love,
Being loved rather than loving,
I survived the unnatural feeling for a minute.
For someone who builds the walls high,
I let my guard down for a moment.
For someone who was a closed book,
I left the door ajar.
For someone who stopped feeling a thing,
I came out of my numbness for a second.
For I am that someone,
Now I’m back to where I was.
I no longer want to question,
Who is this someone I’m becoming.
I’m back to my islet of reality!

October 29, 2021 0

Frown of Joy

Aren’t we supposed to engrave a big smile
On our faces
Inspite of all the ache and turmoil?
Aren’t we supposed to look happy
Even when we are in a great sorrow?
Aren’t we all actors of a play
In clearing our face from emotion
Aren’t we in rehearsal of the biggest show
Denial of our pain?
Aren’t we always in nostalgia
For the good moments we had
Aren’t we in a daydream of what life would be
If we could just change a variable?
Aren’t we fixated on that day or moment
Where we started to see life as it’s meant to be seen?
Aren’t we more scared of living truly
Than facing the inevitable death?
Why not then,
A frown for joy.
A cry for a bliss.
A morbid look for happiness.
Just for a change.
Isn’t that the same thing anyway?
Only a different act?!

October 28, 2021 0

The Beating Broken Heart

I had a dream about you,
Back in the day.
Or may be it was real.
It’s all blur now.
I remember you flourishing-
Spreading like a wildfire through my heart.
Heating the wet moldings,
In to precious shapes!
Becoming the walls of my heart.
Fleshed the wall of my thick vessels.
Giving me the sign of life.
Beating!
Not once, but unceasingly.
Even for a second.

I thought you were my passion.
I thought you were the air I breath.
I thought you constituted every ounce of me.
Until you smashed me into pieces.
Broken my heart like I was a cheap vase.
You stumped all over my heart.
O expectations!
You’re not just an ache of my heart.
You were once the drizzle to grow my heart.
But now-
You’ve become a tornado to destroy it.

Here I’m now,
My broken heart is still beating.
Only trying not to fall for expecting.
Again-all over again!

[Title credit: @RunawayGroom]

October 24, 2021 0

The Fabric of Reality

One thread pass through,
Then the other enters.
Imagination vs truth,
Reality or abstract.
Another thread comes in.
The selvage is done now.
Highly a truth.
Partly imagination.
Weaving another thread,
The sensible abstract.
Tearing the physical world apart.
With the magical touch of thought.
Then follows the other thread,
The valuable people around.
The portion of our lives.
The apprentice of our reality.
Now we have the sense of it.
Maybe not the grasp of it all.
Just the hint of it!

October 19, 2021 0

Freedom

Isn’t freedom a prison of kind?
Even when we are free,
Aren’t we imprisoned?
Isn’t being in a physical prison,
Is an actual freedom?
Less choices,
Less option,
More freedom.
But outhere in the air,
Full of opportunities,
Too many options,
Aren’t we more bound?
Which one to choose?
Which one to discard?
May be my heart is chained up,
The moment the chains break free,
Only then I will be free!

October 14, 2021 0

Listening to thy human,
More often than not,
Makes thee a cynic of sort.
Hearkening to those,
Who don’t even listen-
Or think before sayin’
Elicits pain thoroughly.

October 14, 2021 0

Why do I live in resentment?
Isn’t it because of
Things I could have done,
The journeys I wish I could’ve chosen,
The overthinking I could’ve stopped,
The moments I wasn’t spontaneous ?
Isn’t it the moment where boldness left
And fear took over it?
Isn’t it when love becomes the enemy,
And life becomes a nightmare?
For once, I lit the sparks!
And I’ll follow the lights.
Take the risk,
And move along!

October 13, 2021 0

An Ode to my Friend!!

In the middle of the night,
Where darkness reigns,
I think of you.
More of, your pain!
The darkness you’re in.
The agony you’re trying to succumb.
My dear, I wish to carry your pain
To bleed the same.
But you put me in the dark
We are close
But it feels like we’re oceans apart
We talk-
And yet, your silence screams!
I wish I could soften the blow.
I wish I stop the war for you!
But it’s not my place
I want to return the favor
I want to help you spare
The few fragments of yourself
But I don’t know how
For I’m in my own deep pit
Not even close to the mount!
Hold on tight.
You told me we’ll be fine
One day, it would be over
And I believed you
Because it’s you
Just believe this
A year from now
It will be different
Maybe the darkness will lift off
Or the pain will go away
Or may be not!
But can you hold on?
Can you breathe for me ?
And can you not keep me in the dark?
Would you please let me in?

September 20, 2021 0

On Nights Like This…

On nights like this,
When the moon is full,
Huge and bright,
I be reminded of the darkness,
That consumed my life.
That left me for no light,
For no hope or color.

Then I see the brightest moon,
Enough to rob the darkest sky,
It’s magnificence and power,
Making the Orion smaller,
Claiming the throne in the sky.
Then, I hope -again.
For brightness and color,
And for a better future!

September 20, 2021 0

Original

𝘐 𝘯𝘰 𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘳 𝘸𝘪𝘴𝘩 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘢 𝘮𝘪𝘮𝘦!
𝘐 𝘸𝘪𝘴𝘩 𝘐 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘵𝘢𝘭𝘬,
𝘐 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘴𝘢𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘥𝘴-
𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘐 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭,
𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩𝘵𝘴 𝘐 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 ,
𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘢𝘪𝘯 𝘐 𝘦𝘹𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘦,
𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘦𝘯𝘷𝘺 𝘐 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦-
𝘏𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘺 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦!
𝘚𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘴𝘧𝘪𝘦𝘥 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦!
𝘏𝘰𝘸 𝘮𝘶𝘤𝘩 𝘐 𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘴 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘺
𝘖𝘳 𝘴𝘢𝘥…𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘤𝘵𝘶𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺.
𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘨𝘰𝘰𝘥 𝘣𝘺𝘦𝘴 𝘐 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘳𝘦
𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘐 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘸𝘦𝘥
𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘴𝘱𝘰𝘵𝘴 𝘐 𝘩𝘪𝘥
𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘰𝘧𝘵𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘐 𝘩𝘢𝘵𝘦
𝘐 𝘸𝘪𝘴𝘩 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘱 𝘣𝘦𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢 𝘮𝘪𝘮𝘦!
𝘈𝘯 𝘢𝘤𝘵𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘴𝘰𝘳𝘵 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘥.
𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘢𝘺 𝘪𝘵 𝘰𝘶𝘵𝘭𝘰𝘶𝘥.
𝘈𝘯𝘥 𝘧𝘳𝘦𝘦 𝘮𝘺 𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘥!

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September 6, 2021 0

𝔖𝔠𝔢𝔭𝔱𝔦𝔠𝔦𝔰𝔪

𝔒𝔫𝔠𝔢,
ℑ 𝔲𝔰𝔢𝔡 𝔱𝔬 𝔟𝔢𝔩𝔦𝔢𝔳𝔢 𝔦𝔫 𝔩𝔦𝔣𝔢,
ℑ 𝔲𝔰𝔢𝔡 𝔱𝔬 𝔟𝔢𝔩𝔦𝔢𝔳𝔢 𝔦𝔫 𝔩𝔬𝔳𝔢,
ℑ 𝔲𝔰𝔢𝔡 𝔱𝔬 𝔟𝔢𝔩𝔦𝔢𝔳𝔢 𝔦𝔫 𝔰𝔢𝔠𝔬𝔫𝔡 𝔠𝔥𝔞𝔫𝔠𝔢𝔰,
ℑ 𝔲𝔰𝔢𝔡 𝔱𝔬 𝔟𝔢𝔩𝔦𝔢𝔳𝔢 𝔦𝔫 𝔭𝔯𝔬𝔪𝔦𝔰𝔢𝔰,
ℑ 𝔲𝔰𝔢𝔡 𝔱𝔬 𝔟𝔢𝔩𝔦𝔢𝔳𝔢 𝔦𝔫 𝔣𝔞𝔱𝔢,
ℑ 𝔲𝔰𝔢𝔡 𝔱𝔬 𝔟𝔢𝔩𝔦𝔢𝔳𝔢!
𝔅𝔲𝔱 𝔫𝔬𝔴, ℑ’𝔪 𝔰𝔠𝔢𝔭𝔱𝔦𝔠𝔞𝔩.
𝔖𝔠𝔢𝔭𝔱𝔦𝔠𝔞𝔩 𝔦𝔫 𝔞𝔩𝔩.

August 25, 2021 0