How Do You Let Go?

Have you ever felt like?
Losing something you never had in the first place?
The weird thing is-
You already knew that someone is not yours.
But may be, tiny part of you wanted it to be yours?
Is that why it feels like this?

Science says, if you see something forthcoming-
Guessed or wait for it to happen,
And if it actually happens,
It should obviously make you happy.
Because, you’re right.
Even though, you didn’t have the evidence
Or any data to prove your point,
It just feels nice to be right.

Why don’t I feel proud, then?
I’ve seen it comin’
I’ve expected how it would go,
My expectations were right.
Why don’t I feel ecstatic, then?
Rather than pain in my stomach?

Why does it feel like double abandonment?
Why do I feel the pain in my every bones?
Do I even have any right to feel the way I feel?
I honestly don’t know!

This is what I know though,
Whenever you feel this way,
There’s a common sayin’
You have to move on,
Just let it go!
If you want to prospice,
You have to let go of the past.
Break the chains of the ancient,
And stretch to grasp your front.
Just let it go from your hand.
As if it was planted in your hand¡
So what are you gonna do with your heart?
Are you gonna cut off your whole heart out?

May be-
I’ll never know the concept of letting go.
I will never master the art of denying part of me.
But, they say time heals everything.
So, may be in time,
I’ll sew my heart to other thing,
And that way, I could save the fragment of me-
From being lost in the pain or the past.
May be, just may be-
I won’t lose my whole heart-
And myself for this!

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Dedicated to all of those who felt rejected and unloved by the very people they want to be loved by!

P.S. this poem is NOT about someone whom I have a romantic relationship with!!