My Sophie’s Choice

Have you ever felt like talking your heart out?
Saying every word inside your head?
Shouting out all your thoughts?
Pouring every venom out of your blood?
If that was only easy?!

But then, reality hits different!
If you mimic your dark thoughts outloud,
If you pour your heart out,
If you get to the bottom of your pain,
What then?

It takes every bone inside you-
Just to say it outloud,
To be vulnerable,
To say that you’re weak.
But again, what then?

People often wonder-
Why you bottle up,
Why you don’t give it a try?
They even assume,
That you don’t trust them?!

But here’s my question-
Are you sure you want to be part of my worst days?
To be part of my darkest memories?
To impart my abstract, yet terrible thoughts?
Are you sure you want to see the broken pieces of my heart?
You’re not planning to use it as a sword, do you?
Or a stone to crush the remnants of my brokenness?
Can you promise not to stab me with the one thing I buried deep?
Would you please not use my thoughts against me?

Or should I just choose to be courageous?
For once, should I let go off my bottle-
And break it into pieces?
Just to let you in?
To have you around,
And inside?

This is my sophie’s choice.
I don’t know which to choose,
Or let go.
I just hope, or wish-
I would be courageous.
And this time, I hope it’s not wrong!

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#Footnote: This is dedicated to all the people who struggle to choose vulnerability or bottling up every single day of their lives. I hope you would choose vulnerability [courage] today! And I wish you would find the rarest people to let you be who you really are!